I’m scared to go to the doctor tomorrow because I know most of it will be about the weight I’ve gained and I feel like an idiot and disgusting and I feel like I need to make excuses for myself. But honestly there is so much going on and taking care of my body and my health is the last thing on my mind. I tell myself I’ll be able to get back into shape after college stuff is done and the show is over but what if I can’t?
Finally saw American Beauty.
I was with a friend so I couldn’t sob as openly as I would have liked but wow. That movie is brilliant.